just_muse_me | 18.6.3. Bad experiences

18.6.3. TEN experiences you wish you'd never had

1. That damn race
2. Seeing the report on the news about my colleague being killed
3. Figuring out that Ellie fucked me over
4. That whole phone call with my commanding officer
5. Being told I was AWOL and going to face court-martial
6. Ellie telling me if I turned myself in, the marriage was over
7. Turning myself in. Even though it was the right thing to do, I would've rathered have done the right thing in the first place
8. Learning that Ellie had been cheating on me the entire time I was in Iraq
9. The court-martial
10. Getting my wedding ring cut off

just_muse_me | 18.2.5. The Devil you don't...

18.2.5. Better the Devil you know than the Devil you don't

Stupid.

I couldn’t believe how suffocatingly stupid I felt.

What sort of soldier is so totally naïve and oblivious as to not see that his wife was taking him for a ride? Literally, if we take into account that goddamn race. I should’ve seen the signs, I really should. There wasn’t any excuse for failing like I did. My unit was sent home and I was so excited to be seeing my wife again that I let myself slip. Being on leave seemed so appealing. Hell, Ellie and I hadn’t been married a month before I was shipped to Iraq. It was a strain, but we dealt with it. We both knew I could go at any time and when the phone call came, she promised she would wait for me.

And, like an idiot, I believed her.

( I just didn’t realise that ‘waiting’ constituted letting another dude share our marital bed with her. Cheating on me was never part of the deal... )

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